Are all people that we call friends our friends?

Good evening to you my dear readers from around the world!

This day could not be more sad than this but I know that by tommorow everything will be fine. Todays topic is on friendships. Why? Well that’s because I don’t feel that I have luck with friends. I am good at finding people that always try to sniff around, mess with me and leave me completely disturbed. I think the planet in Jhyestha nakshatra of my husband is to blame this time though. People feel jealous and go behind my back. If you want me to be more clear, fine I will be.

Since some time I made friends with a girl that is having a high Scorpio energy. For a long time she couldn’t find a guy that she would feel a connection with. I made friends with many guys online but as I wasn’t ready for anything and some of them reminded me of someone I really did want to forget I thanked them for their time. One of the guys I thought would be a good match for that friend of mine and so I’ve introduced them to each other and after a few dates they became a couple. And nothing is wrong there, I was happy that finally I could help someone. That’s where the disappointing time starts that makes me feel like she started to feel that her boyfriend is not enough for her. There is not a single conversation where she would not ask about my husband, sometimes even she skips to say “hallo” and ask straight about my relationship. A couple of weeks ago I’ve changed my status on Facebook from married to nothing but it seems like for other people it was visible as single.

To be honest it does not matter what stands in my relationship status, the question asked was wrong again. The girl took her time explaining herself but what she does not understand is that from my point of view a facebook friend should not ask intimate and private questions. She makes me feel on and on like she is haunting in her thoughts for my husband and she feels jealous that I have him instead of her. And don’t take me wrong. I am not acting on emotions here.It’s my intuition. Even my husband observed a suspicious behaviour of hers. It’s like she tries to compete against me. In the start I thought it was a coincidence, I try to explain it with her narcissistic tendencies that she herself said that she had but now I’ve got enough.

If you think that I am not fair and I act rashly then fine but if someone only creates a relationship with me based on social media and never wants to give that extra from their side, that is not a real friendship. She invited me to a beach in Nacka but as I could not go because my kids are out of controll at times I’ve asked her to come to Nynäshamn which is not that far for someone that you really consider a friend but she declined. The only time she pops up is when something is happening between me and Ahad. Then she asks me questions which are really uncomfortable.

Today I’ve reached the limit. I thanked her for the memories and blocked her everywhere. Because I don’t want people to sniff around my relationship. My relationship may be visible in the media, our youtube channel but whatever we don’t show online we want to save for ourselves. It’s our private matter how things go between us and we do not need a third party. Even in friendships there are boundaries which you should not cross.

Why I feel so worried about it? Well. In high school there was a boy that I really really liked. I’ve introduced him and one of my friends. My friend was supposed to get some information about what the guy thinks about me. I wasn’t very brave at that time and I did not know a shit about dating or romance. Few weeks after my birthday they became a couple behind my back. She only has told me once they were together. I flipped. I even felt like jumping in front of a train that time. She hurt my self-esteem and I had a very difficult time making friends with girls since then. Forget trust. I was to afraid to do that for over a decade. Too be honest I felt that boys and men are better as friends. At least they don’t bullshit and say as it is.

Thus my dear readers, I’ve taken a step back. I choose loneliness once again. Good news is that at least I can trust myself. I will never touch anyone’s man.

See ya !

Truth has the power to hurt one’s eyes

Good morning my dear readers!

Here I am a little upset again. This time I can more than sure blame it on my period. It has the way to turn me into a cry baby instead of a lion. But that’s not what I want to share with you all. Let’s talk about stating some facts. There will be always people or more likely poisonous snakes that will hide behind their innocent face. I am calling such people “chameleons” because they change color and camouflage themselves for protection. Such people often are arrogant and lack of self-esteem so they feed on others. When their life turns colorful they tend to forget all their sins.

Instead of nagging on and on about all the people in my life that have mobster tendencies let me talk about what is right and what is wrong. As you know lies has short legs. Sooner or later people that has to know the truth will know. I am a bit more mature than in the past and will not resort to violence or blackmailing of any kind. I don’t have jealousy issues as I prefer to be on healthy terms with people. It can become quite awkward if you meet someone from your past on the street and you did not treat them right. In my case I don’t have to worry. I’ve only cut relations with people that were abusing their position. But the reality is cruel. The more you try to cut relation with people, the more they want to be in your life and make sure you know that you don’t deserve to be happy if they are not happy. And this specific case I am going to present to you.

Not so long ago I’ve shared with you that my ex husband is getting married. I am truly happy for him. But I wish he had been more mature one year ago as he acts like he is today. Yesterday I’ve confronted him about his behavior when I’ve just started to get to know Ahad. There was a day that he took my phone and throw it on the ground because he did not like that I talked to Ahad. That time we were just talking for two days and we were just on the stage of being friendly with each other. Another day he started calling me names when I was on call with Ahad and asked Ahad if he really wants to be with someone like me, then insulting me while I was on the call. Ahads was shocked. He couldn’t believe that someone that is a father acts this way towards the woman that gived birth to his kids. He constantly blackmailed me saying that if Ahad comes here then he cannot live or even meet our kids. He has been a jerk even after I married Ahad, trying to order me around until his parents arrange this marriage for him. I know he will not change, no matter how much I wish he could be happy. I think he simply enjoys irregularities in his life. But back to the story….

Since he started talking to the girl he will marry, he constantly locks himself in different rooms, if I come close he makes his phone in silence mode or cuts the call. Believe me, I will never attack anyone if they have not done anything wrong to me. When I am done, I am done. I did not divorce my ex to teach him any lesson. I did because he wasn’t happy with me nor was I happy with him. His behavior these days awakens a lot of suspicion and yes, he earned my mistrust. I am more than sure that he is doing something that will only bite his butt later on. Women know what they want. Many of them do. He won’t be able to keep secrets forever. I just hope he will not put himself in an embarrassing situation because the next three years ahead look very promising for me but not for him. He is cursed to have argues whenever he marries in the 6th or 8th month of the marriage, with the Saturn in 12th house in his Navamsha and the yearly horoscope of his for 2023 shows Muntha in 7th house. Wishing him a lot of strength because I will not give up on my own happiness that easily with Muntha in 3rd house of the yearly horoscope for 2023!

By now you may ask…where is the truth that hurts the eyes?

Well my dear readers… it’s crystal clear psychology and a lot of reactions. Until next! ❤️