Vacation’s over. Action, baby!

Good morning!

It’s a sunny Sunday this morning in Sweden. And I feel in love or more likely I do yearn for love. Not sure if it’s because I slept with husband by my side (on the other side of the phone) or I’ve slept well knowing that vacation’s over. Nevertheless, today is a day I’ve started dreaming like years ago which brought me to thinking that maybe what I need is closeness, doing things which I cannot do with anyone else.

Watching my husbands back while he’s sleeping awaken a lot of feelings of affection. Whenever I am in Pakistan I always watch him sleep because he looks super cute. I am the one to cover him with blanket. He probably would take care of me too if not that he is a deep sleeper.

I’ve exercised this morning, thinking about my future self. Every day I see a improvement. I’ve got my curves back and feel more tight. I cannot wait to go on dates with my hubby in this body. I’ve probably checked dozens of dresses I would like to wear next time I am with my jalebi baby. When you are with somebody that knows how to give and take love, care and time, life feels very balanced and healthy. And that’s where action comes to play.

Vacation’s over. Action, baby!

It’s time to go back to work. I’ve got plenty of courses in hospitality management and event planning, a YouTube channel to run and of course Shades of me content to improve. But beside that pretty many bills to take care of. Money is in, money is out 😂. That’s pretty much my life. And don’t misunderstand me. I’m not chill about my financial problems. I tend to erupt like a Vulcano at times, sometimes it’s intense like a tsunami and comes without warning but I’ve just got to keep calm and keep working towards a better future which I hope will somehow come after my 33th birthday 🎂. And yeah… that’s in like 5 years but looking forward to it makes me want to improve myself. I know I may get sick if I try too hard but that’s just how I am.

Thank you for today & for the days on ward lord 🙏

See ya!

Towards the unknown & how to keep your cool

Hello world!

Outside a complete grayness, although despite the clouds the weather is hot. This morning I felt proud because I earned enough money for rent but on the same time I felt ashamed because there are more expenses than what my earnings can cover at the moment. But despite this I somehow managed to keep my cool. I woke up, made breakfast for the kids, cleaned the house, fixed the laundry and wrote plenty of cover letters. I even went back to my high school years and found my portfolio with most of the drawings and sculptures I made (I will write a separate post about it). I used to be in less trouble before, yet panicked more. I guess practice makes one a master.

In the recent years I’ve learned that responsibility is not easy, especially when you try to make your loved ones happy but it ends up with putting yourself in a total disastrous situation. I’ve also learned to look for solutions rather than give up before you’ve tried everything. I am actually thinking a lot about trying once more my strength in arts and design. My education is not finished, I don’t have contacts nor a stable job but I have talent and a head filled with ideas. I feel there is no time to dwell over why people are blind and cannot see what a wonderful addition I would make to their working place. Instead I am going to put all my talents to use. I am trying really hard to keep myself busy and positive to the changes.

Unfortunately, Jupiter will be going back and forth for sometime. It means that whatever debt I have will grow because of the Jupiters transit in Pisces in my 8th house. But on the bright side I will swim towards the unknown waters and once I know the dangers there I will learn to handle those with some practice as well.

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The conclusion of it is that anxiety and stress make us do stupid things and put us more in danger than what we may have imagined from the start. I remember how my mom used to take loan on a loan and of course I’ve copied her way of handling things until the moment I completely did not have any money to use and had to keep calm despite the notifications to pay bills coming up on my cellphone or my mail box being filled with notices. There is a saying that for you to be a good teacher, you need to be a good student. I guess I am on my way to find out the outcome of my practice.

Have a nice day my dear people of the world!

Saturn Return in 7th house

Hello everybody!

In the last 29 years of your life you had been going through different stages in life where you had to learn the meaning of resposibility, duty, respect, restriction and grow the ability to choose what is better for your growth even though at times it was difficult to let go. Those that tried to disobey authority, their parents and other elders in teenage years or early 20s had gotten bitten by the karma as anyone who tries to break the rings of Saturn suffers losses and has to experience a lot of misery connected to the placement Saturn sits in at birth. In this post we will be discussing about Saturn Return in 7th house.

Saturn is one of the most feared planets aside Ketu , Rahu and Mars. When in 7th house it signifies that you should marry only after you are at least 30 years old. Before that things like dating, living together or marriage should not take place as it will bring you suffering. Saturn wants you to work on your own achivements in the work environment or business before you settle down.

Once you are in your late 20s until Saturn changes sign you will experience many tests related to business, courts, partnership and wherever Saturn own the house. Those that got married before their 30s will get a test connected to their spouse. If you pass your marriage will be stronger than ever before but if you give up you will divorce to find someone more suitable for yourself. If you never dated or lived with anyone Saturn will let you meet someone which you could end up marrying.

Saturn will be aspecting your ascendant. How much of influence the Saturn Return will have on you depends on the planet which rules your ascendant. If your Ascendant is in Leo expect a lot of tension from authoritative people like for example the government or people above you at your working place as Sun and Saturn are enemies. Sign at the cusp of 7th house has importance too. While Saturn in Capricorn in 7th house could signify commitment to work and relationships, Saturn in Aquarius in 7th house could be about becoming responsible for your future. You would be forced to think more about what you want and how you could reach there. That’s especially true if you had lived so far for other people, trying to meet their requirments, fullfilling your duties towards others while putting your goals and dreams aside. Aquarius is a sign of networking and the masses as well which could indicate you becoming a person that looks more outwards and does things to make the world a better place. Expect doing some charity work during that time as it eases the influence of Saturn. Even knowing the position of Saturn in Navamsha and Dasamsha chart will give you some more indications about the influence of the transit of Saturn through houses.

I did not have my Saturn Return yet but believe me, I feel the restricitive powers of the planet with the rings especially when I am getting near my 29th birthday and Saturn will transit to the same place where it was at the time of my birth trice due to its retrograde movement. When you hit 33 years you would be more practical about relationships and parterships. You would be able to handle your duties and have a different approach to life. Saturn matures at the age of 36 and that’s where you could see the fruits of your personal growth. It may hurt from time to time, after all Saturn has the ability to really frustrate people at times but never give up. Live to your fullest potential.

Thank you and stay strong my friends !