Separate but together. Happy 1st marriage anniversary!

Hello my dear readers!

How are you ? Cuz…I am dead tired to be honest 😂 But even when I am tired I still have some moments in my life that bring me joy. Meeting my husband is one of these moments. Before I tell you the story of our first face to face meeting let me tell you about today.

Today reminded me pretty much about that day one year ago with the exception I was running late for my work, the SL app stopped working and then my SL ticket vanished but at last I made it. Indeed I felt for a moment like I am cursed and started wishing for a better wedding anniversary next year because what if it starts becoming a tradition, me having constantly issues with traffic and technology on that day. But then I thought that I am quite lucky. The bus driver let me in so I could go to Globen, later the metro stuff let me through the gates so I could take the train to Skanstull where I had been working these past two days. Then luckily Clarion Sign Hotel had free internet so I could ask for help and so I called the SL customer service and luckily even though I reinstall the SL app they could find my ticket and activate it again. Even when my life leads me to the feeling of hopelessness I gather the courage to believe that God will never leave a person in need and so it send me all this angels.

Our wedding day ❤ 2021.08.25

And then we come to my hubby and our marriage…marriage anniversary. I wish this day could be celebrated in the most colorful way but I suppose we are meant to work hard first and then enjoy the fruits of our labour. We celebrate separately but still together. I came to a conlusion that we should celebrate each day we are together rather just some specific days. Being married is a celebration itself is what I feel. I think I am learning some important things about long lasting commitment. I am not sure if I would see it the same way if we had lived together at once but that’s how I see it today.

I still remember that day, the day I held Ahads hand for the first time. It was very warm, soft but on the same time strong. It felt as if he couldn’t believe that I actually am there holding his hand. The plane landed in early morning. It was still very dark outside. But we still could see our faces and well, we gave each other awkward looks because we talked about kissing on the airport but with all people around looking at my white face it just felt too much overwhelming. So I just sat inside the car holding Ahads hand, we kept laughing and hugging. Probably at 2/3 of the way back to his home I kissed him. I just felt the tension was too much. I cannot handle nervous people 🤣. He was so much tired and lost somewhere in his thoughts he did not understand what he was doing nor what’s happening. We arrived at his home by 4 or 5 AM. All family members greeted me. They were super excited I guess. I was so tired I just changed my dress and went to sleep with Fatima in her room. I did not even have the strength to talk much. I fell asleep very quickly but probably did not managed to sleep more than 5-6 hours that day. When I wake up Ahad was feeling a little better and wasn’t so awkward with me anymore. It felt like I am seeing a small kid getting a christmas gift. He was just too much excited and overwhelmed by me being there. And as today is our anniversary, I really really miss him. But probably we will need to wait for some time to meet up again. I truly hope to celebrate one of our birthdays together this year or next year. I will work really hard for it to come true. So hold thumbs for me.

Happy Wedding anniversary to us ! Cheers!

See you soon with a new post my dear brothers and sisters !

Yet another solar return prediction

Hello my people! My current husband gave me a challenge to predict his future just like I did in case of my ex husband, thus here I go.

Ahads birth chart (D1)
Solar return 2022/2023 (Varshphal)

The first thing you will see is that 2022/2023 will be very much career oriented because natal 10th house is in the the solar returns 1st house. Solar returns ascendant lord Mercury is in the solar return 7th house together with Sun. Solar return 7th house is in natal 4th house. Solar return 7th house lord Jupiter is in solar return 10th house. This indicates home based bussiness/family business. Mercury is a planet of commerce and Sun represents the father. In conclusion 2022/2023 will be a year where Ahad could be teaming up with his father to earn money.

2nd solar return house in natal 11th house. House of family wealth connected to energy of gains and organizations. Ahads natal 8th house is in solar return 11th house. This indicates he could get some resources from his family which will be used to pay some kind of debts. I will not go deeper there.

3rd solar return house in natal 12th house. Indicates a lot of exhausting trips made, a lot of paper work and kind of anxiety loaded communication with me as Ahads spouse. There could be tension given by the goverment of foreign country. 4th house of solar return in natal 1st house is another indicator that family life and issues connected to foreign lands will be significant during 2022/2023.

Solar return 5th house in natal 2nd house indicates some restraint or decreasement regarding, luck but even romance. Even if there will be, it will not be as enjoyable as it used to be due to psychological blockages. As it can be even seen by the natal 5th house in solar return 8th house. Money will be less and love life could be less enjoyable as well.

Solar return 6th house in natal 3rd house could indicates some health issue of younger sibling and even hospitalization due to illness.

Solar return 9th house in natal 6th house again gives as an indication of legal battles with foreign goverment or people from a different country or culture. As Ahad is always full of hope, he will start being sceptical towards everything he knew so far.

In conclusion, it will be a year when pink glasses will fall off and reality could kick Ahads ass but the positive effect of this is that he will become a real man, ready to take on another role. During the solar return of 2022/2023 Ahad will turn 26 years and during 2023/2024 he will be 27. This means his Mars will reach a point of maturation. By 2025 when he turns 28 years he will be a totally different man, I guess fatherhood changes people 🤣.

Let’s check how things will go in end of 2023 and during whole 2024.

Solar return 2023/2024 (Varshphal)

The solar year 2023/2024 indicates child birth. And of course I could be the one giving birth to Ahads child 🤣. Solar return ascendant is in natal 12th house and the solar return ascendant lord Sun is in solar return 5th house together with Mars. Indication of worries about childbirth is there. Moreover two malefics in solar return 5th house could indicate some serious operation I do believe, maybe a C-section. My 2nd son was born in very dramatic circumstances so it could be very much true. Once you have complications during labour, you will keep having them.

But let’s not get sad, this is not the whole solar year 2024.

2nd house of solar return in natal ascendant, confirms that there will be a baby. Ketu in 2nd house copies energy of Mercury which resides in the 4th house of solar return. What else it shows is that there may be some small financial matters to address. But as solar return 3rd house in natal 2nd house indicates these could be solved by Ahads siblings or by some kind of his own effort like teaching kids or by travel. Focus on earning own money will be there throughout the year. Then we have solar return 4th house in natal 3rd house implying a lot of communication regarding baby and parenthood as well as real estate issues.

Solar return 5th house in natal 4th house, just another baby boom indicator 🤣 but not only. It will be a joyous time where Ahad will treat his wife as goddess 🥰, (sex goddess) 🤣.Solar return 6th house in natal 5th hous shows a lot of intense hard energy. Unfortunately, this change will not be so much great for my health as we can see 7th house of solar return is in natal 6th house, the wife will be a little less cheerful than usually. But the sex is still there as solar return 8th house confirms. Well, in worse scenario there could be a break of some kind but let’s be hopeful instead of Ahad.

Solar return 9th house in tal 8th house indicates a lot of unexpected travel to far away lands for love as well as work as seen by the solar return 10th house in natal 9th house.

Solar return 11th house in natal 10th house indicates gains through friends, good reputation.

Solar return 12th house in natal 11th house tells us that year 2024 will end with some worries regarding family, joint assets and even trouble with in laws as there is a connection between natal 12th house, natal 4th house and natal 8th house in the solar return chart.

So let’s breath and move forward in life. Cheers !

Have a pleasant 8th of August 2022!

Knowing future is fun, speculations are fun but let’s not forget to live in the present too !

Bye !

Vacation’s over. Action, baby!

Good morning!

It’s a sunny Sunday this morning in Sweden. And I feel in love or more likely I do yearn for love. Not sure if it’s because I slept with husband by my side (on the other side of the phone) or I’ve slept well knowing that vacation’s over. Nevertheless, today is a day I’ve started dreaming like years ago which brought me to thinking that maybe what I need is closeness, doing things which I cannot do with anyone else.

Watching my husbands back while he’s sleeping awaken a lot of feelings of affection. Whenever I am in Pakistan I always watch him sleep because he looks super cute. I am the one to cover him with blanket. He probably would take care of me too if not that he is a deep sleeper.

I’ve exercised this morning, thinking about my future self. Every day I see a improvement. I’ve got my curves back and feel more tight. I cannot wait to go on dates with my hubby in this body. I’ve probably checked dozens of dresses I would like to wear next time I am with my jalebi baby. When you are with somebody that knows how to give and take love, care and time, life feels very balanced and healthy. And that’s where action comes to play.

Vacation’s over. Action, baby!

It’s time to go back to work. I’ve got plenty of courses in hospitality management and event planning, a YouTube channel to run and of course Shades of me content to improve. But beside that pretty many bills to take care of. Money is in, money is out 😂. That’s pretty much my life. And don’t misunderstand me. I’m not chill about my financial problems. I tend to erupt like a Vulcano at times, sometimes it’s intense like a tsunami and comes without warning but I’ve just got to keep calm and keep working towards a better future which I hope will somehow come after my 33th birthday 🎂. And yeah… that’s in like 5 years but looking forward to it makes me want to improve myself. I know I may get sick if I try too hard but that’s just how I am.

Thank you for today & for the days on ward lord 🙏

See ya!