Knowing your opponents is the key 🔎

Knowing your opponents is the key my friends. And astrology holds the answer. I don’t need to be a papparazzi to know things about you nor do I need to be a hacker to know how much your earn or whether you keep secrets from me. Astrology has the effect of an magnifying glass. It will zoom and reveal every part of your life. That’s why a good tip for you out there 😉 – always ask your date for their birth details, you will know whether you waste your time or if its worth investing.

The biggest opponent in my life at this moment is probably my ex-husband. He is sly when it comes to his behaviour. When things go right for me or when I really tried to move on a get a job in the days before our divorce he wouldn´t let me but look at him now. Trying to push me out in the world now that he is about to get married. Selfishness has many faces and no shame. Making me a problem, when I’ve never begged him to stay this long with me.

Since protection is very important to me I’ve decided to use astrology as my weapon to analyze how his crazy ideas will impact my life in 2023.

Ex’s Birth chart (D1)

The thing to observe in his birth chart is that his moon is in Aries at 5 degrees with decimals. Sade sati will hit him before it hits me, dear friends. Let my life be a social experiment to you.

Solar return 2022/2023

My ex is born in December so his solar year starts a little before his birthday in 2022 to a little before his birthday in 2023. As we see his identity will be of a social butterfly until end of next year. There is a lot of romantic communication. 3rd house is the house of lovers after all and his natal 3rd house is in solar return 1st house, then the lord of the solar return 1st house is in 5th house of solar return which would be his natal 7th house. Natal 7th house in solar return 5th house indicates engagement and thats pretty much done since a month or so. What you don’t know is that the muntha in 2023 is in 7th house. What it means is that there will be worries and sickness, disharmony in married life. Not a good start in other words.

As we see Neptune and Moon are sitting in his 7th house of solar return which is the 9th house in his natal chart. I suspect that because he is lazy and disoriented when it comes to his married life and all duties included he will have most likely a traditional wedding first, going around fire 7 times and that stuff. Moon is mind and Neptune is spirituality, confusion and detachment. His solar return Saturn which rules his solar return 7th house is in his solar return 6th house. As you can see Capricorn sign is in his 8th house in natal chart. A very dull and heavy tranformation there. Marriage will be about duties not much romance there. I suspect his new wife will get sick or become weak for some reason shortly after they marry.

His solar return 8th house is in his natal 10th house. Jupiter is a benefic but in a malefic house we will see a negative kind of expansion. Ex will take a loan and may have trouble at his working place, either dismissal or the burden will be too heavy and he will quit.

Next spring probably a lot of unexpected travel due to work is going to happen. Signing contracts and stuff like this. Travel will be to places outside of Stockholm or maybe even Sweden. The interesting thing is that his natal 12th house is in solar return 10th house with a malefic Mars there. What could happen is that someone will accuse him of something, legally speaking of course. Could happen, after all his company is quite stupid and gives everyone a company bank card. And the man is the master at losing his phones and wallets.

What we see is that he will probably hit jackpot and make the girl he marries pregnant. Natal ascendant Gemini in solar return 11th house indicates gains, then the lord Mercury is in solar return in 5th house and the solar return 5th house makes a connection with solar return 8th house with its lord Jupiter. There we have the whole puzzle. He will become daddy again. Hopefully, he will love his new child as for real, not just for his reputation to stay good as its in my case now that whole family sees me as a bad person and him as a caring parent.

His natal 2nd house is in solar return 12th house meaning he will lie, deceive, keep secrets and have plenty issues with his finances. And that’s where I say :

Thank you God for the gift of intuition you had given me 🙏

Now let’s see 2023/2024… Just checking, because that’s where my life is going to take a positive turn after a time of turmoil.

Ex´s solar return 2023/2024

Interesting…. his natal ascendant is in solar return 8th house. And his solar return ascendant is in his natal 6th house. The man will have worries over his wifes health. I guess she will have a complicated pregnancy. How I see it?

Well, Moon is the mind, Venus is the spouse, 8th house is the house of ups and downs, 6th house is the house of diseases. There is a link between the houses and planets.

But okay let´s discuss from the solar return ascendant.

Solar return ascendant is in his natal 6th house. Venus is a benefic, Scorpio is a sign of transformation, Mars is the lord and sitting in the 2nd house of solar return meaning that he would fix his debts. But as I said the worry may be there still. The year will be very much about health, debts, pets and so on as per the significance of 6th house.

There is a slight chance his wife will help him out financially to end things in Sweden and just come back to Nepal.

Bad news probably will be about his younger brother or someone will die because there is a communication connected to someones health condition or demise. His natal 8th house is in his 3rd house of solar return and the house is connected by Saturn with his solar return 4th house. The news will make him to go to foreign lands as solar return 4th house is in his natal 9th house.

Natal 10th house is in solar returns 5th house. Could be a little bit of confusion there regarding resources and love life.

Natal 11th house in solar return 6th house indicates that the ex could get a job offer from a friend or a loan from a friend.

Solar return 7th house in natal 12th house indicates that my ex will either deceive his wife regarding his loans or do plenty of disloyal actions. Neither way, his social life will be complicated and not empty on problems.

9th house of solar return in natal 2nd house, there the lord of solar return 9th house Moon sits in 8th house of solar return, another indication of travel regarding family matters such as birth, illness or death. Could indicate big losses due to travel.

Interestingly his solar return 12th house is in his natal 5th house, his baby will not have an easy start in life. His wife could have pregnancy or delivery complications. As 5th house stands for children and 12th house for losses and places like hospitals, I hope that gain will not become a lose shortly after.

I think that’s pretty much my friends… Got to sharpen my patience….

See ya !

Vacation’s over. Action, baby!

Good morning!

It’s a sunny Sunday this morning in Sweden. And I feel in love or more likely I do yearn for love. Not sure if it’s because I slept with husband by my side (on the other side of the phone) or I’ve slept well knowing that vacation’s over. Nevertheless, today is a day I’ve started dreaming like years ago which brought me to thinking that maybe what I need is closeness, doing things which I cannot do with anyone else.

Watching my husbands back while he’s sleeping awaken a lot of feelings of affection. Whenever I am in Pakistan I always watch him sleep because he looks super cute. I am the one to cover him with blanket. He probably would take care of me too if not that he is a deep sleeper.

I’ve exercised this morning, thinking about my future self. Every day I see a improvement. I’ve got my curves back and feel more tight. I cannot wait to go on dates with my hubby in this body. I’ve probably checked dozens of dresses I would like to wear next time I am with my jalebi baby. When you are with somebody that knows how to give and take love, care and time, life feels very balanced and healthy. And that’s where action comes to play.

Vacation’s over. Action, baby!

It’s time to go back to work. I’ve got plenty of courses in hospitality management and event planning, a YouTube channel to run and of course Shades of me content to improve. But beside that pretty many bills to take care of. Money is in, money is out 😂. That’s pretty much my life. And don’t misunderstand me. I’m not chill about my financial problems. I tend to erupt like a Vulcano at times, sometimes it’s intense like a tsunami and comes without warning but I’ve just got to keep calm and keep working towards a better future which I hope will somehow come after my 33th birthday 🎂. And yeah… that’s in like 5 years but looking forward to it makes me want to improve myself. I know I may get sick if I try too hard but that’s just how I am.

Thank you for today & for the days on ward lord 🙏

See ya!

Being a mother … being a daughter

Good afternoon! Welcome to Shades of me !

Since it’s Mother’s Day, I’ve been reflecting a lot about me as a mother versus me as a daughter. The only thing that comes into my mind is that neither of the roles are easy. Being a mother means I need to be selfless, even if I disagree on many things I need to remind myself that I deserve to be my own person and so does my children. Of course I could easily manipulate kids into doing things which I see right for myself rather than them but that would mean I am not deserving of being called their mom. When I look at myself as the daughter that always was obedient, I really get sad when looking at the outcome.

I do not have issues with overindulgence when it comes to drugs or alcohol. I do not smoke even cigarettes. I am not a party girl. I do not leave my children with strangers to enjoy my life. I study, work, try my best to manage the household, going to doctor appointments with kids. Yet, in the eyes of my mother I am always not good enough. I am getting criticised, abandoned. I am being put in a sack with people that are thousands times worse. Is it a crime to love people despite their differences ? Is it a crime that I don’t spit on gays and lesbians? Is it a crime that I am tolerant ? Is it a crime that I have my own set of principles? Is it a crime that I don’t teach my children to hate others?

I am a wonderful human being and so are my kids. My youngest is the smartest kid I ever got to meet. He wasn’t even two years old and he knew the names of dinosaurs and pets, birds and sea creatures. And my eldest is the most sensible person I’ve ever got to meet. He is truly caring and innovative. He is not scared of being different. While other boys play only with guns, dinosaurs or cars, my boy does not mind playing with ponny and dolls. While his dad can make fun of him at times, I encourage him to play the way he likes because no one has the rights to choose what is better for you. If any of my children said that they don’t feel like being boys or that they have feelings for boys nothing would change my love for them. They are still my children despite all.

Unfortunately, I cannot count on the same. My grandmom called me today asking me to wish my mom a great day but I cannot. Not after she gave back all the gifts and cards I ever gave her for Mother’s day. To me it’s like saying that I am a marionette. Do what I say then you will be my daughter, don’t do and you lose the right to call me your mother – kind of thing.

But I’m not. If I can love her despite all irresponsible things she had ever done. She should too love us the same way. And I will not do any bargains on this.

Thank you for reading & wishing you a wonderful Mother’s Day!