I woke up really early today. I planned to finish my assignments in German that did not get approved by the teacher and I worked really hard. But when I sync with myself, I understood that it does not give me any happiness like it used to. It became a lot of hard work to me because not only did I have to attend every class or take the class with people that missed it, I had two different tests and two different assignments in the forum but teacher would not help so often. In most cases I had to guess what I did wrong. Even though I was given to talk German with people I did not feel I got the real feeling there either because none of them was a native speaker.
When I checked the check-list this morning I just felt overwhelmed because whatever I did not pass and even some words which I did not know when I did the tests which I passed, I had to write them down and leave a comment to it. I am not very good at long term repetition. And to me effectiveness matters the most. I felt this course does not satisfy that criteria anymore. So even though I purchased the litterature for the next part of the course I just felt “Why not just do it on your own, since you do it any way?“. And I clicked the ” Cancel…” – botton.
Was it a good choice or a reckless decision?
I think the only thing I will miss will be the “Freie Sprechen“. I will not miss the ” Duggas” or the “Mina fel” file. It’s a nonsense to have attented the course before and to do everything from 0. And it’s a nonsense to have so many assignments when the course is 7.5 credits and goes 25%.
I have now three books of Lieber Deutsch 2.0 by Liber and a whole Delfin book. So I am thinking of repeating everything little by little. Translating the texts and just take it at my own pace, no deadlines and requirements. Life will be tough enough. To minimize the tension is natural to me. And I am not so bad at German speaking either. I just have to repeat and do what my teacher did not manage to help me with. Understand the rules of the German grammatics.
Thats’s all. I think its not a bad decision I made. But it will show in the future, I guess.
Thank you for reading & see you later!