Starting the weekend with an adventure at Maritime Museum in Stockholm

Good Saturday morning!

I cannot believe that I’ve actually slept today without waking up in the middle of the night. I guess I was exhausted but on the other side its good with a little rest. I did not have enough these days and I still need to keep my fighting spirit up. The last 30 days has been filled with many challenges and confusions especially for Austin and Aaron. I had to gather the last piece of energy yesterday and decided to take them out. They were eager to go to the Maritime Museum. We made a stop at McDonalds first.

Of course a little bit of plastic was definitely more interesting than the food 😂 … But somehow we managed to leave after 1 hour, happy and few pounds heavier.

Aaron and Austin were happy to look around the museum. They even found a place where they could play.

Them being happy despite the circumstances we adults are in is probably the greatest gift a parent can get. I would feel totally devastated if I would be the reason behind tears.

The visit did not last long. They got pretty much bored running around so I’ve decided to use that energy and take a walk back to Stockholm City. This was the first time they walked 3 km with me. Austin got pretty much exhausted and fell asleep as soon as I put him in the stroller. Aaron still had some energy and took a last picture with the lion statue .

But well…even the most energetic child gets tired…

Any last words?

Well… if you want to teach your kids something and want them to explore all sides of life go to museums, theaters, cinemas. Spend time with them. Having parents involved in their activities will make them grow into independent individuals. They will be more expressive and willing to challenge their boundries. If you like taking walks like me, take your kids with you. Aaron and Austin became very innovative on the way. They used the street lightening and benches to create a game where they collected points by running and touching them.

Thank you for reading !

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Trying to cope despite the circumstances

Hello my dear readers!

I’m exhausted! Just finished cleaning half of the apartment. I’m trying to make the house even more beautiful than what it has been. I feel my mars being fully activated. And guess what… news travel fast. All family members know what is happening in my life. Even my mother paid me a visit yesterday. I suppose it must be heartbreaking to imagine your only daughter facing issues with the law. Luckily me, I don’t remember doing anything that would hurt my conscience. When I do wrong I apologize. But I cannot be responsible for someones perception of events. And it’s a fact.

But let’s talk good news. I am in the middle of Mercury period. And this time for sure. Secondly, I will not have anyone supervising me while writing thesis. And Mr. Dymek did not criticize my topic this time, thus I feel very hopeful. I keep searching for a new job while I attend classes. I am even waiting for some money from Försäkringskassan and the last 5 weeks from CSN. So let’s see… I’m hoping for the best.

See you soon !

Past is past, forget it fast?

Good morning people of this world!

It’s the 4th or 5th day that I cannot have a full night sleep. My kids are very sensitive these days, especially Aaron. Since he found out about his dads remarrige he has been extremely clingy and moody. He seeks verification of love by doing a mix of good and bad things. Many people would like to tell me that I ask for it but the truth is… I did not. Even as you divorce past never becomes past, especially when you have children that bond you forever. Well… of course it also depends if you married a self-centered man like I did. Now I truly regret that I even let him to become my husband. Not only is he the king at deceit, he is manipulative and very ignorant. But life has to go on and I am about to approach on a new journey, probably more difficult than climbing Mount Everest. I feel very disappointed and frustrated deep down. To overcome this feelings will take me some practice. When I look at my kids, it becomes almost impossible. Because they are innocent.

Every one deserves to be happy. But being happy does not mean forgetting your children.

Hold thumbs for me. Life is going to take a turn…