Good thursday !
By the way today is my birthday 🎂 Happy B-day to me !
I’ve just found out today that 6th from Saturn is where my karma lays. Do you know where it is ?
12th house in Cancer zodiac sign. I was destined to change things regarding my roots even if it means losing my mothers affection. Every time I lose conneciton with my mom it is due to the matters of religion. And yes, 12th house lord Moon is in 9th house in Aries. And so my belief system did not only transform, I kind of lost touch with my roots.
To be honest with you all, I don’t regret going through this transformation, because you cannot be a devote of God without understanding humanity. And so you cannot call yourself a good person if you discriminate others based of their belief system, the way they look or are healthwise but even because of their sexual orientation.
So what would I like to share with you ?
I’ve been struggling a lot these 29 years of my life and tried to keep going forward with a smile but I don’t feel like being a fool anymore and wait for things to change regarding my finances and work. Its not easy to receive criticism when you know as much about your fate as I do know about mine. I am 29 from today onwards. These 29 years taught me a lot about who I am and who I would like to be. I actually married twice in the timeframe of 10 years. I met a lot of famous people like Markus Aujalay. I actuallt had a peeling potatoes-competition with him when I did my internship at his cafe in Aspudden in 2015. Then one of my classmates from high school became a social media personality through participation in Paradise hotel. Before I entered high school I met Daniel from Panetoz, a rap band and even got to practice singing with him. That is the reason I do not feel regret. I have probably experienced more than the people that do charter journeys once or twice a year. I saw the real world. The poverty in Nepal and the power of women in Pakistan. I experienced the life of a princess in the initial years of 20s. And I must tell you that although I did not always feel happy, I am very grateful for everything and everyone that came to my life, even a jerk like Shahzada or my ex-husband Prajwol.
I still have few years to go before I can look in the mirrow feeling proud of my achivements. But I am going to work harder then ever. I believe there is still a lot for me to experience. Doing things without a backup is scary to be honest but if I don’t try I may actually start regreting. So please cheer for me. I want to stand on my own and glow, even when the whole world is filled with darkness. On Monday, I will make the last purchase before I set on a new quest. Stay tunned. Soon this lady will try to use her own hands and her crazy imagination to earn her own bread.
Thank you !