Staying out of social media

Good Monday evening my dear readers !

I used to love posting videos and pictures a lot but the more I live I feel that I need the real things, real people. I’ve decided today to take a break from social media and from my long distance relationship as well. Facebook, instagram, WhatsApp, Snapchat… all apps deleted for me to find the balance and energy to keep going.

I realised today that I don’t enjoy talking to my husband every day over the phone as much as in the past. It’s draining and feels more like an obligation or duty than something I could say that I love doing. I talked about this with Ahad before but he always ended being sad and I kept pushing myself but now I cannot ignore my feelings anymore. I need to live according to my own timeframes else I will become crazy.

Does it mean I stop blogging as well?

Not sure… maybe, at least for a day or two. I want to do the things I usually don’t do. Usually morning is dedicated to kids, sometimes middle of the day is for me searching jobs and evening is for Ahad. There is not so much space for my own hobbies or interests. Even if I wished to sleep at 7 PM I cannot because usually Ahad comes to talk around that time and I feel that it really does not work for me anymore. I feel tired… really really tired. So that’s the reason I’m out of the apps. I just want to focus on myself and my feelings. I need social life and less virtual life at this moment. I need to feel the presence which I cannot feel by talking to people using social media apps.

See you !


Nourishing soup with sweet potatoes

This recipe is simple but the taste will blow you away. I would recommend this soup for cold autumn and winter but it’s not bad in the summer especially after a tough week of work.

Ingredients (4 portions)

  • 1 Red onion
  • 1 Sweet potato
  • 1 whole zucchini
  • 1 whole Capsicum
  • A cup of cooked lentils
  • A cup of cooked chickpeas
  • Chicken broth (vegetable broth for vegetarian alternative)
  • 4 spoons of Turkish or Natural Yoghurt
  • Taco spices
  • Parsley

To do

1. Chop all the veggies.

2. Fry onions, sweet potatoes, zucchini, capsicum, chickpeas, lentils for few minutes on medium heat.

3. Add the yoghurt and taco spices. Blend well.

4. Add the chicken broth (or water and chicken cube). Cook until the potatoes soften.

5. Add chopped parsley.

Enjoy !

Do you miss a friend as well ?

Good Saturday to you all!

Since I got the news that I will be representing EU Careers at my university, I got motivated to grab my old German books. I have joined a few forums to keep my writing skills alive. I still feel that I have a long way to go but I have explored as well that I can express myself on various topics in German which feels totally „ toll“ (A German word for amazing). I am about to know 4 languages, in speaking and writing. I suppose I am the first one in the Ratajczak generation.

The biggest subject that makes me driven to learn is well… my old friend. My Venus matured at the time when I met him and I started making a requirement list of what I need to feel happy. I met him at the time when I completely drown in agony. And what I felt at that time when we spend time together made a huge impact on me and thus I cannot forget him or the feeling I had and the transformation I went through in 2019/2020. I believe that we will meet one day… when I become stronger, wiser and more financially and emotionally stable. To reconnect and have exchange of thoughts which in my perspective did not go the right way the last time we spoke.

My Ahad asked me yesterday what was bothering me, if he should contact Shahzad for me but I declined. I am not ready and probably the man is still not ready as well to understand his mistakes or even why I am so obsessed over our past. But I do plan to drop by Vienna by the end of the year or at least before my 30th birthday. I would really like to attend the language test at ÖSD and try for B1 or B2. On the same time I could walk on the bridge over the Danube river and remind myself of the beautiful memories I made there. Every time I went there it felt like home. And perhaps while walking without a clear destination we will cross our paths once again…

Nevertheless… Bis Bald ! Vielen Dank fürs Lesen!

Tschüss 👋