Dysfunctional family

Good Sunday to you all !

I am feeling quite blue today I must admit. I have a lot of projects and a lot of other matters making me restless. Today is even the 18th birthday of my younger cousin and nothing is wrong with that. I wish her a good life ahead. But the adults in the family dissappoint me deeply. That’s why I feel very depressed by that. On one side you could say they made a good initiative to make birthday party for her but on the other side having a collective of people that in other circumstances would eat each other alive feels very unstable and gross.

I am aware of the fact that someone in my family will read this soon and a cloud of criticism will be above my head but to me this is wrong. You usually become what you attract. Having someone that likes to gossping, someone that likes to criticize without a valid reason and someone that is abusing alcohol in the same room is what I call a total dysfunction and I don’t want to be a part of it. Thus, I am taking a step back. I don’t wanna be involved in any events where no one can feel safe. And you can never be sure about alcohol. It can turn you into a totally brainless person if you don’t have control over the use and your emotions.

I don’t have any bad intention behind this post. I am simply tired and ashamed in a sense. I know I am better than this and for me to be the person I want to be I have to headstrong and say “No” to such behaviour.

That’s all for me.

Thank you & see you soon with a new post !

Keeping low profile?

Hello my dear readers!

Life this last 7 days has been quite tough on me. I must admit I was too much ahead of myself and misjudged the period of the transit I was in. I thought that the danger was over but nope… The mercury transit has not even started. So in this case I should not expect Ketu period until perhaps November.

Job matters will remain mostly below average and not entirely satisfactory. Work environment will remain disturbed and under pressure during this period. Risk taking tendencies should be curbed totally. You should avoid major activity during this period. If working as a professional, this period will experience hurdles and some challenges. There will be uncertainty and some confusion. You will lack full support from your own people. Possiblity of some legal action against you is also there. The health of your dear ones may create anxiety for you. There will be problem in the progeny during this period. You should keep a low profile during this time and avoid changes.

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I pretty much thought that Saturn period was over. Unfortunately, it was not. Not sure if I misjudged it because Saturn is retrograde but well its happening. Saturn is in Capricorn in my 6th house of disputes, diseases, law matters. I think you know where I am headed with this. Well… I was supposed to keep my profile low. I think I shall listen. To be honest I don’t have a lot of energy. Not sure if it’s the herbal tea I’ve been drinking or sleepless nights because of so many things on my head and Austin being sick but I feel like a corpse without any spark to life right now. I’m kind of sad and scared too. I have never been in this kind of situation before. I have never thought I could ever end up where I am. But I am all I have at the moment. I need to be strong for my children. They need me. And I need them in my life too. Hopefully, I will get a job and an employer that will not leave me with a problem like my current employer did. It feels just so unfair and cruel in a way.

See ya my dear readers! And send me your positive energy. I will need it.

Mercury retrograde twists your life? Mine too.

Good morning my dear readers!

Friday. Finally !

I don’t think I could be more happy than this. To be honest I am extremely tired and I do feel sick. I’ve been struggling with both fever, throat pain and cough since two weeks. When it feels like its over, it comes back. But that’s not what mercury retrograde is. Mercury is about communication, siblings, electronics, engined vehicles and everything that can go wrong with it. For some of you Mercury will stand for other things. After all we do not have the same kind of birth charts.

For me dear readers the hellish effects of Mercury retrograde just started and I believe it will not stop until 2nd of October. So first of all I fight with many people since weeks back. I’ve had even misunderstandings with my classmates. It’s like we don’t speak a similar language. Then yesterday I’ve got a call from the support team in my company because some child accused me of abuse. I will never set my foot again in Alby or the schools in the near area. Not only children are ungrateful, they don’t listen, spit on each other and call each other names but they try to overpower you, run outside in the middle of the class and well… I feel like I was at a military camp, not a school.

To make things worse I’ve just sent a reference person list before yesterday to a new employer. And I mentioned my current job to them. I wonder if I will get the new job now…after someone has painted by name in all kinds of dark shades. Hopefully, this event will not have that impact because I feel so over being teacher for kids who do not want to learn. I have a lot of patience. I don’t even hit my own kids and some strangers child will accuse me of this and that…. It makes me really sad and disappointed with this world.

Next week I will be all alone with my kids too and SL already announced that the trains will not run for some time as per schedule so I will need to take a bus with them every morning. Wonder how that goes…?

This weekend will be about cleaning first of all. I may be going out soon to buy some food in ICA. Even the weather is not nice today. But well… wish me luck 🙏. I realy feel so exhausted by all this.

Wishing you a better weekend than mine ! See ya!