Good Sunday to you all !
I am feeling quite blue today I must admit. I have a lot of projects and a lot of other matters making me restless. Today is even the 18th birthday of my younger cousin and nothing is wrong with that. I wish her a good life ahead. But the adults in the family dissappoint me deeply. That’s why I feel very depressed by that. On one side you could say they made a good initiative to make birthday party for her but on the other side having a collective of people that in other circumstances would eat each other alive feels very unstable and gross.
I am aware of the fact that someone in my family will read this soon and a cloud of criticism will be above my head but to me this is wrong. You usually become what you attract. Having someone that likes to gossping, someone that likes to criticize without a valid reason and someone that is abusing alcohol in the same room is what I call a total dysfunction and I don’t want to be a part of it. Thus, I am taking a step back. I don’t wanna be involved in any events where no one can feel safe. And you can never be sure about alcohol. It can turn you into a totally brainless person if you don’t have control over the use and your emotions.
I don’t have any bad intention behind this post. I am simply tired and ashamed in a sense. I know I am better than this and for me to be the person I want to be I have to headstrong and say “No” to such behaviour.
That’s all for me.
Thank you & see you soon with a new post !