There is nothing more amusing than the beauty of nature. It surprises me every year. There is something nostalgic about it. Something I sense every year are the lessons that come with the changes. We have spring that is like the birth of a child, then summer that is like our teens (hormone buzzing). Once Autumn comes we come to a realization we are getting older but it does not make us uglier. We are more beautiful, within. We are wiser, stronger, more experienced by life than the season before. We are not scared of the challenges ahead of us. Soon after comes winter and it may feel disastrous for 99% of us to say goodbye to whatever or whoever we lost but with time it will get better. It always does. And after our hearts heal from the winter cold, we will get our rebirth, our inner wisdom and strength amplified. Its just a reflection but to me it sounds so beautiful at times I actually shed tears. Maybe I am oversensitive as some people say. Nevertheless, to feel deep is a gift. I am not going to feel ashamed of it. That is what makes me unique just like you.
I like early mornings. It’s so silent. it feels like time has stopped for a moment. There are no cars on the streets and no people too (except those that are waking up early to walk their pets). I have this habit of walking and reminding myself of the past or the things which I find difficult. My morning walks give me the opportunity to reflect upon my goals. To connect with nature is great. And it’s very sustainable. There is nothing artificial about it, it’s healthy.
When I am busy I often ignore what is around me. I only focus on my checklist, things to be done with before the day. I don’t notice things like birds are singing less for every day that passes by or that the wind has become colder. We often don’t appreciate these things, events, people when they are around us. Our egos collide, disagreements destroy the beauty within our bond. Nevertheless, I am happy. I learn every single day about what kind of person I want to become. I’ve always been my own parent. It’s reassuring I can be that again. When I do wrong I reflect upon myself, what I could have done better or if my actions were a necessity. When I do well I embrace myself. No matter how sad it may sound the life of a spiritual person is not about pleasing others. I am here to evolve through helping you wherever it is cutting grass in your yard or listening to stories which would knocked out anyone else because they would find it boring… but not a spiritual person. We do listen and we do care but we have our boundaries. We give you the space to make your own decisions. Your life, your story. You are the writer that deep in your heart knows what kind of ending you are going to have. There are always different paths in life. You don’t need to be a copy of your siblings, parents or friends. That´s what I got out of reflecting today.
You must admit that the colors of autumn are beautiful. The cold weather does some good to few of us, we get closer to our loved ones. I actually had a thought while walking this morning. I am kind of a daydreamer. I saw me and my precious holding hands in the park, playing leaves and hide and seek with all our kids. I saw us watching movies while cuddling on a coach veered with a warm blanket and drinking hot beverages. It felt so cozy. My heart skipped a few beats and although I could sense some cold on me a little earlier while strolling the park I felt so hot. Maybe it’s because he was actually there (digitally). I received my every day morning message while I was outside. It felt nice. Especially when I thought of him too. I´ve said this before but I miss him a lot. This cold weather reminds me of colds and warm clothes. Its not as cold in Pakistan yet but still Ahad is a real sickling. But its okay. I am a motherly soul after all.
Well… take care of yourself and your beloved. And don’t worry, even though it’s gonna turn quite gloomy soon. Life has its ups and downs but it’s only to make us grow. I know I can overcome that and you can do it as well.
Until tomorrow my dears 💞🧸😉✌